Dont know if it's a good or bad thing

伤心越来越少了

Maybe i am just all ready to suppress it.

Everyone has a life story to tell. And life story often touches my life in one way or the other.  To be frank, I'm a very emotional personnel. I think a lot, I look a lot and I hear a lot.  Though my scope of view may not be bigger than anyone else, I feel that there is still a lot of things I can't miss out in life.  Not known to a lot of people, sometimes I do silence myself from everyone and cry for a short while when I get to know a sad story from a friend, or even just someone who is not related to me.  Calvin always says that I shouldn't be thinking too much, and end up stressing myself too much. But I always told him, if I stopped doing all these, I will no longer be me (Though sometimes I really think that he is right:) :)

And maybe because of that I'm also quite a perfectionist.  I know how important it is to cherish today as if there is no another day and that's what I always advocate to all my friends. keke.. Not as if I can do it well, but I just feel that this is the known fact that it will happen to you someday somehow. Just like how my dad pass on on us. Just like how every great selling inspiration books, or even blockmaster cartoon movie will tell you.  That's life and we need to fulfil our lives, cant effort to miss out any part of it.  Just like I mentioned,  I can never do it well too, or rather I do not have the strength to make sure that every part of my life is fulfilling but that is a goal in my heart.

EverytimeI bring work home and  my mum talks to me... I will always have a question running in my head. Is work more important than mum? Though sometimes I will still continue my work cos I am rushing for timeline, I will reminds myself to work smarter next time so that I can have a work life balance in the future and I can spend more time with my family. That's a important goal in my life.

Ops! Diverting:P Back to life stories.

Was watching one million star  just now.  And was quite touched at the last part of the epidsode.  The lady who sang the song, 'LOVE IS OVER'  was the only one who scored lower than 15 and got disqualified.  She cried.  Nothing special though until she mentioned that she was very angry about herself for not singing that song well as it was her story.  For a moment, I feel touched cos I never heard anyone saying that a song is her/his story before.  I thought it was her love story that had ended before but turn out, she talks about her family after the hostress prompted.

She said everyone used to think that she got a very fantastic father, but someday somehow her father slowly left them. She cried and said that she emailed him last year and her father told her that he would be coming back home.  And when this song was delicated for her to sing, it reminds her of her dad and looked back at the email and it was yet a year later and her dad was not back because he has became another family's father. I cried.  Just feel so sad for her. Just feel that that's so unfair to her, though in my opinion she really didnt sing too well.  At the same time I also admire her courage to tell this live story in front of so many people.

Afterwhich I logg on to my friend's blog. What I can say is I can really feel with her, and I know how hard things must be with her now cos I went through it before. Just want this friend of mine know that I'm here with you kie:)

Yet another of emo blog.:P Going to sleep now! Tml still got to go and make I/C early in the morning!

Feeling old... and tired

Sometimes when I look into the mirror, I find myself old, don't have the youthfulness that i used to have. But I am only 25! zzz.. maybe it's me, maybe is my job, maybe is my stress, maybe relationship, maybe family, maybe , maybe .. ... I am just old le.

Feeling lethargic often. HAve a lot of things in mind to do to acheive but just dont have the strength to do it.

When you are old, either you start thinking of things that you never thought of in the past, or you start doing things that you thought you won't do in the past.

Actually if you ask me what I really want to do now. I want to get married! haha... In the past, I thought I will only want to get married  when I reach 30. But considering many factors... taking wedding photos, like age gap between yor child and you , I thought marrying at young age could be a good idea. Hai.. however, that's only thought. Must meet the right guy, right feeling then can marry right?

Feeling rather stress recently and that makes me feel that I have aged even more.

For a lot of things I just feel very hopeless and helpless. Where's my drive and motivation in life now.

I going to seek it back!

Dear dear 27th Birthday!:)

Dear dear 27th Birthday!